Last night! Last night! Last night(:

Well well, Nabilah, Hanisah, Amirah, Anne and I went for Chemistry lesson rather late this morning. I mean what's the point of going if I already predicted that one worksheet of his would take an hour. We attended the lesson only for half an hour, but who bothers. Anyway, Anne and I headed off to Central's bus stop as we intended to make our way to her house first.

Left for Whitesands around lunchtime and we had our lunch at KFC. Zul was like so unreachable. Anne had to ring Nicholas up during their games, asking him to get Zul to turn on his phone. Minutes later, I called Zul on his cellphone, only to realise that it was Adrie who picked up the call. Adrie was as if huh-ing throughout the call. He even deceived Zul that it was his mom on the line. Haha, not funny, Adrie.

Like forever, it took Zul to arrive. To my surprise, Amanda turned up without notice. Siska came to! Haha. And I saw Amin and his friend, again.

When Nicholas arrived, Syed and Anne were already about to leave.

The second step(:

It may have been a pretty pleasant day, but well, there were disappointments too. Awww..


It just dawned on me that I may not be very sure of what do I really want to pursue. Onlookers may have a clearer overview of the situation, but me, myself have a better inner understanding of my heart. I will not rule out heeding advices, but after all, the final decision lies within my hands.

I somehow ponder what have I just rambled about.

I love.

Thursday, 26th July 2007:

I am as if going on an eating binge or something. Simply gorging myself with food and more food lately. Well, upset, that word should fit into my sentence.


Friday, 27th July 2007:

Cheer up, Shayne. That should be sufficient to explain your abrupt behaviour in class today. It wasn't intentional, so please don't mull over it. Do heed my advices and I know you will pull through. Don't let jealousy get the better of you. Everything would turn out really fine for you(:


Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

Even if my world is on the verge of dying, and a trillion of tear drops trickled profusely down the moon's eyes, I know I would be fine. Because I love you, still. Despite of your hurtful words that leaves my heart bleeding, I still love you, all the same. I have tried fighting against my feelings, but I lost the battle. I was defeated. In high hopes that things would lie down in place, they just ignored my wishes and swerved out of the road. When my heart just sunk into a bottomless pit..

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you, endlessly

Yellowcard
Only one

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you.
You are my only one.
Made my mistakes, let you down.
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long.
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone.


Secondhand Serenade
It's Not Over

Why is it over?
We had the chance to make it.
Now it's over, it's over.
I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.
I lose my sense of wrong and right.
I cry, I cry.
I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head.
I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away the life that I led.
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart.
You're breaking my, you're breaking my heart.
Don't tell that we will never be together.


Simple Plan
Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside.
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away.
And it feels like you don't care anymore.


Avril Lavigne
When You're Gone

When you walk away I count the steps that you take.
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too.
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay.
I miss you.
I've never felt this way before.
Everything that I do reminds me of you.
They smell just like you, I love the things that you do.


These lyrics just summarise my feelings. I love you.

When I was younger,
it felt as though I owned the world.
Holding my mind above the sky,
roaming around each inch of earth,
wherever my legs would bring me to.

Moshing in concerts,
hooking up those whores.
A Casanova, I ever was.
Frisky, frivolous, a sick state of mind.

And life, sailing along the breeze,
with everything just beneath my feet.

Now that I'm older,
absurd misfortunes befell on me.
Robbing my happiness away from me.
Distraught and helpless,
that's all I can feel.

Relying on inventions just to live.
A flair for art,but a statue myself.
My pride was trampled a thousand times,
being mocked as 'The Frozen One'.

An unsignificant withered leaf,
a beating heart that deemed so dead.


All right, the above is my poem for our Literature June holiday assignment.


Hey, I still love you. It has been a long time since the day we've broken up, and things have changed. But my feeling for you remains. I love you, and yes I really do.

Okay, some Friday when we held our NCC Day in school. Eventually, it was decided that the entire contingent shall march in. Hanan and I were like jealous. Hah, but anyway, we raised the state and school's flag. Gee, a total screw up for me.


Another random Saturday, went to HQ for NCC Day training. This time, Adam was here as the guys' flag bearer. Alpha 2's sirs were there, apart from Sir Hamdan. A pity. Sun burnt, sun burnt, sun burnt. Siska made us howl with laughter, I mean it's like we just cracked up. Few of us wanted to travel across the parade ground but seeing many cadets marching across, we decided to march in our PRCS style. We hooked our arms together are walked in steps with the side people swinging their arms. Sir Syahiid and others were like laughing their heads off. Hahaha. We approached the medic with hopes of getting sun burnt cream, but all he could offer was antiseptic cream. Lol.

On our way up to the ladies to get dressed in our No. 1, I bumped into Pandang Ke Hadapan again! Heh, not literally.

It's like every week, some of us would go home with different people, and this time, we went back with the Springfield guys, all for the sake of my dear Siska. Lol.


Another unknown Tuesday, for NCC training, Ma'am instructed us to do PDS. I am a failure in that, seriously. Drat. Following week, we arranged a time after school to do PDS, in preparations for AOH performance selection round. I cannot recall who else were there, but I am aware that Siska, Ahmad, Albin, Mustaqim, Shazni, Ain, Hui Bin were present. Ahmad smells so good and girlie. I wore his watch and after I removed it, my wrist smelt like him! Heh.


There was this amazing day when I saw Spec Course's Hadi, CSM, and Zheng Hao. Then I also saw Helio and Clayder. Awesome..


My beloved 8th July, as usual, we started with our training\rehearsals. I was the most unfortunate cadet living on this earth ever. Like my COC, I always managed to stay away from the first rank after sizing, but when it's the last and actual sizing, I am placed in front. Drat. Not the first time already! Then I requested for a change, but nah, not approved.

Sir Syahiid and Sir Alvin were there, like of course. Awww.. During our long, long break, Latifah and I stood at the forth floor's corridor, gazing at the BEAUTIFUL SCENERY. So gorgeous! Haha, and adorable.

In my opinion, my performance for NCC Day was much better than COC. Birthday song was sung repeatedly by our GOH. I love, and love the GOHs dearly. We are like the best, hahaha.

I really missed those trainings we had. Each training may not be easy or relaxed, but all of us, are the ones that bring up our spirits. It is sad to end these trainings. God, it is fun! With all due respect, NCC is the best(:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!


13th July 2007:
The second Black Friday is like meant to be a joyous day for me! Haha.

Anyway, after I met the OBS people, I went on to Whitesands just to meet up with Anne. Nicholas and the both of us went to Downtown then off to the beach.


15th July 2007:
Yesterday was a wonder and my sweetest pie. Anne, Amanda, Beth and Anne's dad, Mr Ricky Chew, and I were on the way to his restaurant and bar, Giraffe, when we saw Joakim! Heh, cutie.

Let the pictures do the talking for the day!



Okay, just a picture first. Many more, but well, some other day then.

(:

I rose rather early today but I did not want to wake Aslam up yet so I went to bathe and prepare. Met up with the NCC girls and Ahmad was present too, dressed in No. 4. In the end, he did not turn up for training as flag bearer. Aslam arrived at 86 bus stop much earlier than us. Old Gran's tale. So he waited. Latifah's mom had to come down to 86 bus stop just to send her her No. 1. Awww..

PRCS girls were pretty early, haha. Ma'am Xiao Wei was there for rappelling too. Sized at the parade ground, actual. Satisfied with my standing position. Wacky girls, lol. Had not had much solid intake. My stomach was growling like grizzly bear. I saw Aerzam! It's been ages since I last saw him. To think I spotted Shaun Gan from St. Patrick's before Haryani do. It's her friend.

During breaks, we caught up with those good old days. It was really sweet(:

Honestly and frankly speaking, marching pass may be strenuous, but not very intense.

Need to grab some sleep. Shall continue with the going home part soon.


Goodnight!

I am sorry. I cannot really bring myself to believe your words are for real. You can talk about other girls in my presence, that's how sincere you can get.

Sorry that I hung up your call.

(:

This may be abrupt but when I was with Siska last night, I thought I witnessed a shooting star! I was telling Siska that I saw an aeroplane and she told me that her mom mistook a plane for a shooting star. The next moment, I thought I caught a fleeting glimpse of a shooting star. I really wonder..


When I was on the way to Tampines Mall in my uncle's car, I saw Nicholas and the PDS\NPCC guys. Then I yelled to everyone in the car "Hey look! Hah, my school's NPCC.", everyone turned and looked. When I learnt about what happened the following second, I was in the hospital.

Coincidentally, Shayne messaged me when we were in the same mall. Lol. I saw Jonathan and waved, but Shayne did not see me. Then I went in to the theatres with my brother and cousins for a movie, Rise Of The Silver Surfer. God, Chris Evans! Anyway, my cousin is such a gentleman(:

Someone broke my heart, awww.. Lol!

Goodnight.

I don't know how to express this joy, happiness and excitement here. This silly, wide smile on my face is unimaginable! I am on cloud nine, literally. Gosh, I cannot contain this happiness till my organs are scrunched together. I am bubbling with excitement!

GOODNIGHT!!!

Today was much much much better than I had expected! Firstly, the weather was wet, and hence, we started our training later than scheduled. All the present GOH contingents assembled at the MPH. Oh! Congratulations to Ain for passing out as a PDI! That's lovely. On the way back to GOH Land, Girls, I was wondering, "Hey! Isn't that Sir Hadi?!", and Haryani was like "Sir Hadi!". Then I saw Sir Farhan and recalled that he mentioned to me he would be there for rappelling. He went "Hi Jean", muted. I felt rather happy to see Sir Hadi there! That guy.

Released for early break and when we were queuing for our snacks, I saw Sir Syahiid and was stunned. Whatever for? Good lord, god knows. I was ecstatic already. I cracked up and went in hysterics. I have not seen Sir Hadi and Sir Syahiid for thirteen days. Anyway, tomorrow will be two weeks since our POP day. How sad. Two weeks have passed but memories of Spec Course are still vividly intact in my mind! Anyway, training begun soon after. Was not that intense as compared to COC's training.

At the FUP, I happened to be looking up at the rappelling station and saw this guy who really resembled Sir Syahiid's standing posture. When I heard him shouting his particulars to the belayer, I just recognise that voice. In the midst of the rehearsal-like training, I heard someone who sounded like Sir Hadi and a couple of seconds later, he just zoomed down. Apparently, I suppose that based on Sir Hadi's character, that must be him. Haha. Lastly, I seriously heard Sir Farhan sharp and loud. I was like "Whoa, Sir Farhan uh.", foof!

One Bartley guy from Air who has nice facial features which obviously includes sharp nose!


I went shopping with Hui Bin yesterday after the trip to HQ. The lady actually suggested that we collect Sergeant ranks, but after receiving opinions and taking in some considerations, I decided not to. I thought I saw a Sir yesterday on our way to Marina Sqaure, could not really tell.


In the nutshell, today was fantastic, somehow or rather. As the contingents were rather big, I did not manage to catch some familiar faces from GOH Land, Guys. Sadly enough. Gracious me! Fancy me getting worked up over trivial matters like those mentioned above. Hahaha. God, Siska can make me laugh uproariously, sweetheart.

Goodnight!

There are simply too many pretty websites and I shall list them below. Anyway, try out www.typepad.com.

http://anahata.typepad.com/
http://www.notcot.com/

Whatever now. I am feeling pretty annoyed, somehow or rather.

Goodnight, bollocks to my dad!

That guy is hot! Anyway, I grabbed these photos from a blog; http://facehunter.blogspot.com/. Pretty much love it because the fashion there is love. It is wacky, unique, bold and wild. That's so love. You would definitely have all eyes on you if you dress in that sense in Singapore. Love their fashion!!! Gosh, you guys got to see it for yourself.

Okay, that is one real colourful blog; http://flygirls.typepad.com/fly/.

Well well, all these are just few of the photos in their blogs.

Good evening.

First and foremost, congratulations to our school's cadets who completed their Spec Course Phase 3. Well, all were promoted to 3rd Sergeant! Good for them(:

Perhaps tomorrow or on Thursday, I have to head down to HQ( again!). Merely just accompanying Hui Bin and Mashinta to draw their No. 1 uniform.

Found something on the net moments ago..

May You Find This Christmas Inner Peace
May you find this Christmas inner peace
Equal to the patient love you give,
Releasing all the pain you can release,
Renewing all the grace with which you live.
Yearnings may you turn to rhapsodies,
Choosing to find happiness in beauty,
Holding in their haunting melodies
Riches that sustain your sense of duty.
In anger may you find an evening star
Showing you the way to Bethlehem.
The angels that watch naked from afar
May you hear sing of who would none condemn.
As all you love are blessed in having you
So may you feel the joy in all you do.

Composed by: Nicholas Gordon

Kriss Kringle, my Santa boy(:

That was the day when we skived during our CIP at Toy 'R' Us. More like Kids 'R' Us, hah.

Some unknown day, obviously after training. Look at Ain's hair. You know what I mean..
Ain!

For my sweetheart on his birthday.

Topshop Mini!

Another unknown day at the beach.


Hahaha.

Dennison clearing the flour-ary mess he made.

I shall carry on with more pictures later!

Oh oh, I saw this LG Prada phone on the magazine last month. Today, I saw it on display. Gosh, that phone is so dazzling. It cost more than a thousand but I love it. So pretty and glamorous and elegant! You guys should really just take a look at it; http://www.pradaphonebylg.com/, http://www.pradaphonebylg.com/lgpradaphone/lgpradaphone.html. It is touch screen. I just cannot take my eyes of it(:

Goodnight.

Never let the words of others' affect your mood.

Good evening.

I went out for a movie. Itching to go out soon(:

Oh oh, today is exactly one week from the day Spec Course Phase 1's cadets passed out. I miss those guys who can really drive everyone insane. Alpha 2 is so inquisitive and would only bombard the CLTs with silly questions. Hahaha(:

Goodnight!